First Words

Talking. It's one of the very first things we learn to do. We do this everyday and think nothing of it. No matter what language or where you live, everyone communicates in their own way. So I was thinking about this last night, and I found it astonishing but true how when we were young and still learning how to talk, we could so easily blurt anything that came to mind. It didn't matter if the time was right or not, if it was inappropriate or not, we just shouted out the first thing that popped into our head. It was just so simple. Now as we grow we experience new things everyday, and talking seems to become harder. We take part in relationships, we feel things we never have before, we open our eyes to reality and finding words to say seems like such an obstacle. When we were young all we wanted to is talk all day. I know I'm young but I've realized that even after going through everything I have at this point, life will throw things your way that will leave you at a total loss for words. Speechless. It's just so unexplainable. As I grow, I find myself slowing down and learning to think twice before I say what's on my mind. Perhaps this is because we know the power of words.

They say " Sticks and stones can break my bones, but words will never hurt me."

Maybe when we were younger we really believed this. We had not experienced much. We had no idea words can enlighten one's perspective, hurt someone close to you, or even change someone's life forever. The truth is that as we follow through life, things change and we experience something new everyday. It's like all the emotions, experiences, and memories have tangled up into a big web in my mind. I think about what would happen before I say something, and I imagine how the other person will take it. I've definitely made many mistakes where I said something without thinking how much harm it can bring. But the people I have hurt have changed me for the better, they've taught me more than they'll ever know. Sometimes it's hard to find the right words to say, and at others you can't stop yourself if you wanted to. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm learning to be a lot more careful at what I say because the outcome will always be unpredictable.

Lastly, theres those moments that are so perfect their just too good for words. My mouth goes dry and I can't think of a single thing to say. It's like I'm falling in quicksand and I'm sinking past my waist with no one to help. But in the midst of everything, I'm completely happy. These moments are my favorite and part of what I live for. They don't happen very often, so when they do I make sure I remember it. I think these moments should be spent with the ones you truly care about. The ones you would do anything for.

Communication is such a simple thing, yet when mixed in with the reality of life, it easily turns into a complicated, unexplainable idea. This all happens as soon as we learn the truths about life and our innocence wears away. Maybe it's a good thing those speechless moments don't come by very often. It keeps us going, we find comfort and happiness in these moments. So after everything, I guess it's true after all. The power of words really can hurt someone entirely, or open up a whole new world for another.